I am running absolutely terrible. That's all I want to say because there is no point in harping over how unlucky I've been and how many coolers I've endured in the last 5,000 hands. I'm on a 10 buy in downswing, which, from everything I have seen and read is perfectly normal for a winning player. That doesn't make it suck anymore though. I wanted to just talk a little about how I've been trying to deal with this the last few days.
Basically the thing that plagues me is self doubt. Obviously I've never done this for a living and it's difficult to not wonder, what if i can't do this. I've watched a few videos on downswings on bluefire poker and it seems, again, like this is a normal thing for all poker players. You start to wonder if you can still beat the game, blah blah blah. I'm thinking my plan of attack to deal with this swing is to take tomorrow off. I'm going out for a nice dinner with Mel tonight, then going to the gym and Busch Gardens with Jim and Mel tomorrow. That should be a good time and I think it's the perfect day to take off.
Last thing I want to say about the mental part is that I've made a conscious effort to take care of myself. I went for a run and to the gym this morning, ate a salad and really tried to prepare well for today's session. Unfortunately, it didn't go well and I was smart enough to leave when the bad luck caused me to play like shit. So that's that. Oh and the official number I lost today was $201, which makes my numbers look pretty shitty but hopefully I'll end the month well. I tend to compartmentalize my winnings into months because with the swings and such it's easy to have losing weeks but harder to have losing months.
Hours played- 48.5
Total profit- $805
hands played- 28,500
Hourly Rate- $16.5
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